Bodhicharyavatara

Favorite text of all time.
Still can't spell it, but it is amazing.
So, i went back on the meds. A half dose. At night. Takes the anger and clears my head so i can deal a little better. Meanwhile Dave's temper is out of control. He says it is better, but he is sarcastic and mean and has no patience for anything. Between that and everything else, i am having trouble with perspective.
My cat nearly died, so now i have to work two jobs to pay for the vet bills, my job is approaching hostile work environment... I am getting lost in minutia. Spaciousness, as Sogyal Rinpoche calls it, is lost to me at the moment. Meanwhile, i am feeling overwhelmed to the point that sitting just feels like more work. And that is wrong. I try to fight it, but fall asleep if i try to sit or read. Going to keep trying.
Oh, and had a really odd dream. I was at work and the Karmapa was there about to give a teaching, so my boss told me i had to float to another floor. Typical. I told her to fire me because i wasn't going.
Going to go try to read a verse of something and meditate on it. Or sleep trying... ;-)